One of the comments I hear most from readers is that they love how honest I am. They love how I write about everything, not just the hot parts.
The truth is I don't write about everything.
I write about the hot parts I'm willing to share. I write about the funny things. I write about aspects of the lifestyle I think are relevant to my readers. I write about the epiphanies I have and the challenges I face.
Mostly.
I have a huge gaping hole in my heart right now. I can't write about it. I. Just. Can't.
And I can't write about my family and my day to day life. Only the sexy parts.
Since I was a child, I've written when I've felt happy. I've written when I've felt sad. I've written when I have been unable to determine quite how I felt.
Today, more than ever, I NEED to write. I need to write to sort through all that is in my head. I need to write to try to repair the hole that is in my heart.
And I WILL write. I'll write about something fun and sexy. Something interesting.
It'll arouse you. It'll make you think. It might even make you laugh. You'll love it.
But it won't be what I need to write about. It'll be what I'm bound to write about. After all, I'm quite the bondage enthusiast.
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I'm sorry for whatever is going on with you, and I do hope that you get through it okay, I mean, I am sure you will, but either way, heartache sucks.
ReplyDeleteI do completely understand what you mean about the blogging. For everything I choose to publish, I write about 10 pages that will never see the light of day, for whatever reasons. The writing, though, is still worthwhile, necessary even, but it is something different.
Positive thoughts being sent your way.
Ferns
You are wonderfully honest and write about what you need to express. Thanks for sharing
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sindee
I sorry you are so sad. I've missed your posts.
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