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My type

Until a few years ago, I’d always claimed I didn’t have a type. True, I’d enjoyed an exotic men phase (Indian, Egyptian, Iranian, French and Italian) and I’d always enjoyed younger men, but physically, there… 

She’s baaaaaack!

Nodder has been in and out of my life for five years as a play partner, lover and much much more. In February, things ended. He moved out of my home and, eventually, out of… 

Shaved head

“How do you feel about shaving my head?” nodder asked. “About you having a shaved head or me shaving it?” “Either. Both. What do you think?” “I think it’s a great idea.” “You do?” I… 

Romantic shit

I once had a potential bring me my favorite lavender roses with a bottle of my favorite wine. He scored serious points for his sweetness AND for paying attention. And to this day, a picture… 

Snuggling

Nodder called me Mistress Snugglebunny. More than once. And no, I didn’t punish him for it for a couple of reasons. 1) It was funny. 2) It was true. My name is Lilyana and I’m… 

Unintentional monogamy

Once upon a time there was a woman who identified as bisexual, dominant and polyamorous. She chose for dates, play partners and lovers only those that understood that she’d probably never be completely monogamous with… 

Defiance

Nodder’s panties. “I brought you something,” I announced as I pulled things from my overnight bag. “Oh yeah?” nodder asked. I tossed “his” panties on the bed. “I don’t need those,” nodder said. “Yes you… 

Intensity

I should have known that things were different when nodder put his arms around me from behind and kissed my neck while I was making dinner. I wasn’t just instantly wet, my whole body was… 

Punishment and Porn

I’m considering a new guy. We’ve very quickly become quite intrigued with each other, in fact. So much so that we’re both thinking it’s too good to be true. Professionally our backgrounds are similar. Our… 

Mouthy

I normally enjoy a mouthy sub, particularly one as witty as nodder. Not disrespectfully mouthy but talkative. I almost never impose speech restrictions. I’d been talking about playing off and on all day but when… 

Blissfully “boring as fuck”

I’ve been flirting with the idea for a few months now. Today I took the plunge. I’m officially in a monogamous relationship with nodder. I’m still polyamorous. That hasn’t changed. I’m still capable of maintaining… 

Fuck rope

I recently uttered words so unbelievable, so shocking that they stopped nodder in his tracks. Err … Ok, mid thrust. “Fuck rope.” It wasn’t an adjective used to describe a certain type of rope. I… 

Foot fucker

When discussing with nodder all the hottest moments we’ve had together, a few things always come up. We both enjoyed the night I put him in panties, tied him to the table, made him suck… 

Top space: my new favorite drug

I was discussing with 6 the hotness of a scene he’d participated in. It wasn’t co-topping but more like sharing. I enjoy sharing and I’m discovering I enjoy watching. Not random voyeurism though. I’ve pinpointed… 

Peeing on nodder

I don’t often use the term ‘golden shower.’ I rarely even call it ‘water sports.’ I sure as hell don’t use flowery verbiage like ‘drenching you in my sweet nectar.’ What the fuck ever. It’s… 

With a nod

Over the past four years I’ve become increasingly orgasmic. I cannot express how grateful I am for this fact. It wasn’t so long ago that I could only cum when I was on top of…